Hello everyone, my life is going through dramatic changes that are for the..... GOOD!

This is a short entry to inform my followers and readers, the reason I'm not being very attentive to my faithful signed up followers, and random readers from around the world. My life is changing very quickly.  I apologize to those who have commented on my last entry, I feel sort of a pressured guilt which inevitably causes me anxiety, because I'm not being attentive enough, which leads to a panic.
     I'm not being shallow, my life is going through drastic career changes....and it is all for the good.  I need a couple of weeks before a regular routine schedule will be maintained, then I must get back onto the bandwagon of a 'organized' routine.  I've always been very efficient in my 'commitments' and well disciplined in responding to people's responses.  But, during the past nine months of deep emotional distresses.... facing realities which inadvertently brought about much needed healing.....has created a major 'interruption' in my well organized patterned life, and that I must confess is most unsettling, for it makes me feel as if I must start all over again.
     Another point I would like mention is that for some strange reason, I feel my writing style is going to experience a change, and that I find very disconcerting....it's as if I'm not recognizing who I am, per-chance that could mean my 'old' recognizable self is under reconstruction, but.... I'm not going to be anxious concerning this.  It could only mean that "I am putting off childish things", along with, reactions, fears.......you could say old established habits.     Anyway it's all good, don't you think?
     So...... you could say I'm begging your patience with me, and know I'm not ignoring anyone, I just need time to re-organize my time with the utmost efficiency and get back on track in a new 'reconstructed life cycle'.
     That's it for now folks..........later!
Posted by The Manic Chef

Greetings to all...........After a time of silence and rest and thoughtful contemplation.........I'm back

 Greetings first to my signed on followers....and to all those that pop in from time to time.  I see despite my absence, my stats show I am 5 short of reaching 1000 views, and I was wondering is this a good thing?  So I ask my mentors, who are by far more advanced Bloggers than I; could this be a milestone?
    I want to express my gratefulness toward those that are 'followers', those that have signed on and their profile pictures are on display, for staying faithful and still 'followers', it means much to me, and reveals that you are not "fly by night" sort of 'friends'.  I have through the weeks 'peeked' into your blogs to see how your blogging has been going, but have not made any comments......just wanted to make sure you were all still present.
   Boy.... starting up writing again seems strange, almost as 'if' I have to start all over again, and get, as Hercule Poirot states: "the little gray cells" charged up and producing again. But, as it has been mentioned, "the more one practices the better it shall get." So on with the show, or the writing!
   I may even change the 'design' format of my blog.......make it more like my 'personality' and get more creative, make it more colorful, more desirable to the eye. 
   I think I may know what you're thinking, and I hope I'm not being 'presumptuous' for I have not communicated with any of you, with the exception of Klahanie, and Penny, "the modest internet star",  how am I?  Well....... I must tell you, I am for the most part quite at peace within my soul, and mind, I still do not have much of a social life, and I'm still quite isolated, but without the anxiousness that can accompany that 'loneliness' feeling.  Actually I am at 'one' with myself and my personal circumstances, which is seeing some financial relief, I have picked up another client, more on that at another time. 
    I do think, that this is long enough, for we all know how I have the gift of extending my 'gabbish' blog to exaggerated proportions........lol......you know of what I speak? Right?
    So....I must say I am glad to be back, and begin being faithful to ALL of my dear faithful followers, and get reacquainted with what is presently going on in their lives, and their creative writing minds!
    I sincerely thank you for your patience and understanding during this time, so let's talk, let us write and make one another laugh, cry, rejoice, feel sad, inspired, encouraging, and most importantly loving one another in this terribly sick world.  Ok, enough already!!!!!
    Later...........

Thank you everyone

Hello everyone, I won't be writing anytime soon.  I may be calling it quits.
Not concerning my life, I will keep on living, I'm not talking suicide.  I sit alone all the time, watching the internet, smoking, and nibbling on food stuff.
         I need time to REALLY think, and not be so busy with things that only give me temporary relief.  And maybe it's all 'daydreams' and 'wishes' for something that is not going to come through for me.
        I am just running out of steam, loss of interest in anything right now.  I just exist, and maybe that is all I'm to do........ just exist.
        That's all I can say for now.  I'm just very confused and terribly discouraged.
       Thank you.
       Later.